Ever since I realized that MM was likely to become a permanent part of my life, I have thought about what our jointly-conceived child would be like. MM and I met online, so we were both aware that the other wanted children before we ever met face-to-face, and our hope to become parents someday in the near future was discussed quite early on in our relationship.
Would she be blond and blue-eyed like him, or brunette and brown-eyed like me? (In my imaginings, I admit, our child was always a "she". . . . we both have expressed a preference for having a daughter over a son, though goodness knows, we would gladly take whichever gender we got.) Would her hair be thick and curly like mine, or fine and stick-straight like MM's? Would she inherit his high metabolism (please, please) or my tendency toward being overweight? I was sure she would be smart, and I hoped she would have my husband's motivation and work ethic instead of mine. I wondered whether she would inherit musical talent from my side of the family or picky eating habits from his.
Knowing that it is likely that I will never see a child who is a MM/S combination makes me sad. I think never having a child at all would be worse, though.