Saturday, March 10, 2012

Where to go from here

I've been posting very little of late.  Not only am I short on time--what with caring for the boys and all--but I also seem to be short on things to say.

I mentioned in a recent post that I don't think much about my infertility any more now that our boys have arrived.  That's still true for me.  By virtue of the path we have taken to parenthood, I will always identify, to some degree, with being infertile.  I mean, even most women who use IVF to achieve pregnancy end up with children who are genetically related to them.  Taking an alternate path to parenthood using third party reproduction sets me permanently apart in several ways from those who conceive naturally.

And I don't feel that I've "conquered" or "overcome" infertility; rather, I feel like we found a "work around" that was successful for us.  (Not that I care: my goal was to be a parent, and now I am, twice over.)

I don't imagine I will have much more to say on the topic of infertility, given the way I've felt for the past several weeks.  Yes, I will always think of myself as infertile.  It took so much time, effort and money for us to become parents.  I may still sometimes be bothered by "fertiles" who conceive easily and take their fecundity for granted.  But my thoughts are now elsewhere.  My family is complete.

I've never wanted to become a "mommy blogger."  I debated about even continuing this blog through my pregnancy but ultimately decided to continue writing so that the readers with whom I'd formed connections could follow my story to its conclusion. . . which, after all, was really parenthood and not just pregnancy.

I'm not ready to completely shut down this blog, but don't be surprised if I don't post much (or at all).  I will still be continuing to follow the blogs and stories of all my regular bloggers.  Anyone who wants to contact me can do so via the email address listed in my profile.

Ciao for now.