I am having difficulty coming up with things to blog about lately. I have become at least somewhat numb to others' news about their pregnancies and children; I hope that lasts, but I doubt it. We are still on a treatment break (though still TTC on our own; today is CD 17, 3 DPO by OPK), so I don't have anything treatment-related to write about.
I am still thinking about our inability to have a baby of our own and "where do we go from here?," but my current thought patterns are a different type of thinking from my usual thinking about infertility. It's the learning/planning/considering-options kind of thinking, not the angst-filled despair and dwelling that I have felt for a while. And that kind of thinking doesn't really lend itself to good blog posts, at least for me. I like to have my thoughts in order and at least a partial plan in my mind before I put those type of thoughts "out there" for others to read.
A lot of my focus of late has been on trying to lose weight, trying to find things to do at work, and trying to find another job, rather than on trying to get pregnant. Which is probably a good thing, but again, does not lend itself to good blog material.
I still have a couple of half-written posts on topics in my head that I want to explore more fully, but neither is ripe for posting.
So that's where I'm at. My relative absence from this blog doesn't mean that I've stopped thinking about IF by any means. And rest assured that I am still reading your blogs, though I may be commenting less as I try to take a baby step back from the internet. . . . I've been feeling lately like I spend far too much time on the computer. (Fac.ebo.ok should, and will, be the first thing to go; my IF blogs would be the last. I've grown too attached to the writers of the blogs I read and too invested in the outcomes of their struggles to give them up. . . . which reminds me that my blogroll is in need of updating.)
I hope to be back with something more interesting to say soon.