Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Thoughts on this & that

  • It's funny how much less I think about being infertile when I'm not doing treatment or closely tracking my cycle (today is CD 13, in case you're interested).  It's as though I can forget more easily when I'm not constantly trying and failing.
  • I really hate it when people tell me "God has a plan for you" or something similar related to TTC.  First, keep your religious beliefs to yourself.  Second, how do you know?  Third, maybe He *does* have a plan for me, and maybe I don't like His plan.  (You get the idea....)
  • I started doing Jenny Craig today.  (I've done the plan successfully a few times before.)  My apple for my mid-afternoon snack was mealy and disgusting, so I threw it away, and now I'm starving!  I have already downed nearly 100 oz of water today, though, so yea for me.
  • I have a job interview on Friday.  I hope it goes well; I am a little out of practice.  The sooner I can get my work situation sorted, the better.
  • There is a distinct possibility that we will not be doing any further IUIs.  MM and I talked briefly about this topic over the weekend and have not come to a final decision, but I told him how I am tired of trying and failing, and we agreed to consider not doing the final two IUIs we had planned.
  • If we decide not to do any more IUIs, we will still TTC naturally (for all the good that will do) and will likely start saving money for donor egg IVF in a year or two.
  • I wish I were independently wealthy.  I would still work as a lawyer, but only part-time and on a schedule I would unilaterally set.

8 comments:

  1. I'm with you on wanting to be independently wealthy. There is so much I want to do, but I think I would also work part-time. And travel... a lot. Oh, and pay for IVF. Sigh.

    Good luck on Friday! Sending you many positive vibes.

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  2. I hate it when people say that whole god thing, too. Ugh. I just want to tell them that it is OK to just not say anything when they hear about my misfortunes!!!

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  3. I know what you mean about being out of practice for job interviews. I had one this year and the part that I always stumble on is when they ask you if you have any questions. I never know what to say.

    I think moving on from IUIs, may bring you closer to success, but why not try IVF with your own eggs at least once before moving to donor? Just a thought.

    And lastly, you go girl with the diet!

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  4. Nobody ever says "God has a plan for you" when things are going well, do they? They save it for when you're feeling rotten, and I can understand how it might be comforting to a person of faith, but all it makes me do is wonder why God's plans always seem to involve so much suffering.

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  5. Just a note about donor eggs, if that is something you end up looking into. If you look at going internationally the level of care is the same as in North America, but is a fraction of the cost. We went to Czech Republic and it was $13000 including airfare & accomodations, IVF, donor fee, ICSI, Meds for me and donor. I think the same is true for South Africa (capetown fertility). Good luck in whatever you decide to eventually do!

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  6. Oh how I wish we were independently wealthy too! Hope the job interview goes well.

    And way to go on doing Jenny Craig! Hope it goes well for you.

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  7. I posted a comment yesterday, but I guess it didn't go through.

    I totally know what you mean about being out of practice for interviews. I had one this year too and the part that stumped me the most was when they ask me if I have any questions for them. I never know what to say.

    I really hope if this is a job you want, that you get it! Good luck.

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  8. I liked your second bullet -- the one about God. I agree. I also hate it when people say that everything happens for a reason. Really? Or that things work out the way they're supposed to in the end. I've tried to find ways to politely disagree when people say such things and it usually surprises them. Some people have said that because I really, really wanted to have a baby, God made it happen. I secretly think, "No, Dr. Schoolcraft made it happen after I paid him $25,000." Good luck with your job interview Friday!

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