Monday, July 26, 2010

Quick check-in

I haven't been the best ICLW-er this go 'round.  I visited no new blogs over the weekend, and I didn't post here either.  Oops.

I have a couple of ideas for posts simmering on the back burner of my mind, but they haven't come together enough yet to actually gel into coherent thoughts that others might like to read.  So I will continue to let them simmer for now.

I have posted here numerous times about my desire to lose weight and how, even prior to IF, my body had "betrayed" me by its tendency to hold onto excess weight.  (My BMI is currently over 30 and has been for years; let's leave it at that.)  During our treatment break, I said I was going to work on losing weight, and I have been.  Just after July 4th, I rejoined Jenny Craig; I ended up chickening out of the hCG diet because I really didn't think I could manage to eat 500 calories a day.  So I have been on that plan now for three weeks and have also gotten back into going to the gym 3-4 days a week.

In three weeks, I have lost 4.1 lbs.  Which may sound good but is a far cry from the results I was expecting for the amount of effort I'm putting forth.  Sure, if I continued to lose at this rate, I'd eventually get to my goal weight.  In, oh, a couple of years or so.  Grr.

So now I have another reason to be angry at my frustrating, uncooperative, quickly-approaching-middle-aged body.

I have been feeling physically and mentally tired and am finding lately that most days it's all I can do just to drag myself to work and get through the workday.  So going to the gym and planning/preparing meals have taken a HUGE amount of effort for me proportionate to my overall energy level.  I think this is more mental than physical, truth be told.

Ah well.  This, too, shall pass.

4 comments:

  1. Remember that you may be building muscle since you are going to the gym regularly now. Muscle weighs more than fat so you might have lost more than you think you have. Either way, down at all is much better than up so congrats! I lose weight very slowly too (and have about 25 more pounds before I make it to my next goal) so I can totally empathize.

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  2. Ugh. I hate it when I'm working really hard and not seeing the restuls I want. Hope you can stick with it.

    ~Happy ICLW~

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  3. Hey, 4 pounds is nothing to sneeze at. Give yourself some credit, girl! I can totally relate, I also struggle with my weight and it's a constant frustration in my life, which gets worse as I get older and hold on to the LB's even more.

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  4. You are singing my song, girl. I recently posted about my own frustration over trying to lose weight as well. It seems like after the miscarriage, I was and still am mentally and physically tired. After working all day at a very demanding job, I find it really hard to work up the energies to exercise and calorie count. Plus, being over 40, I have noticed that the tips and tricks I use to be able to use back in my early 30's for losing weight, just don't work anymore...the weight doesn't come off as quickly. You are in no way alone, we are all in this together. Congrats on the weight loss so far...every pound is a victory.

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