Friday, June 26, 2009

Odd dream

This morning just before MM startled me awake (he'd set his radio alarm louder-than-expected and was startled himself), I was dreaming. In typical dream fashion, I don't remember all the details of the dream. In it, my mother and I were at a gathering among friends and family, though no one close to me. I can't even remember who else was in the dream besides Mom and me, but I had the impression that these were some distant relatives on my mom's side who I'd either not met before or not seen often.

Right before I was awakened, someone in the group got up to take a medication, and my mom "reminded" me to take my birth control pill. In the dream, I went off on her and was like "Don't you pay attention to me at all?! I've been taking fertility drugs for a couple of months and trying to GET pregnant for over a year!" Dream-Mom blithely told me that the pill would help me and that I should take it.

Not quite sure what THAT was about. It's true that I sometimes think my mom doesn't listen to the things I tell her about TTC. For example, when I started my first round of Clomid, she said "well, for all you know, you could be pregnant right now." Hmmm. I don't think so. Let's hope not, considering I am on a drug that is absolutely contraindicated for pregnant women! Grrr.

It's also true that my mom was the first person to suggest I "get on the pill" when I started college. So maybe a combination of those two things "inspired" the dream.

I think the dream does go to show that even though I don't believe I've been thinking much about the whole TTC thing this cycle, my subconscious is still thinking of it.

2 comments:

  1. hmmm....strange. I think that no matter how we try, when we are TTC it is there....like the 800 pound gorilla in the room. hoping the next few days go quickly and that AF is a no show :)

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  2. I think it is just always there in the background after it has been part of our thoughts and actions for so long... Hugs.

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