Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Feeling odd

I've felt a little "off" all day today. Just generally tired (despite a good night's sleep of 8 hours) and occasionally flushed. I'm thinking it may be related to the Clomid? Who knows.

Remember the post where I talked about how I know so many people who have had babies in the past three years? And how some of them have even had two babies in that time period, either twins or two babies in less than three years? And I mentioned that, to my knowledge, no one I know had had three babies in the past three years?

Yeah, as of last week, scratch that. An acquaintance of mine posted an update on Facebook about the birth of his third son. His oldest will not be 3 until August.

My inability to conceive sometimes makes me feel that I am somehow cursed. I guess it's a logical inference to draw, when everyone who is pregnant or has a new baby so often says they are "blessed." If having a child means one is blessed, I guess being unable to have a child means one is cursed.

Lord knows I am no saint, but I can't figure out what I did that was bad enough to deserve this curse.

2 comments:

  1. Oh, sweetie. I just found your blog, but not only did we start TTC in the same month, I've been saying this myself: "Lord knows I am no saint, but I can't figure out what I did that was bad enough to deserve this curse."

    (And that was before my cat died on Mother's Day and AF showed up the same day ... much less before my mother died a few weeks ago.)

    I'll be thinking of you—here's hoping our empty arms are filled soon.

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