I am once again in the 2WW. As I mentioned in my last post, I am slated to test on 6/20, Father's Day. My father and stepmother, who are not in the know about our TTC efforts and treatment, are going to be visiting, so I am going to have to be stealthy about testing. I have already cautioned MM that he needs to conceal any reaction to either a negative or a positive test from them, as I would not be planning to tell them either way (even if I am pregnant, I would wait until the second trimester to tell my father and stepmother). We'll see how that goes. Historically, a BFN has induced an all-day funk in MM. It'll be interesting to see him hide his emotions from my dad & stepmom.
At this early stage, two days after the IUI, I wouldn't expect to have any symptoms, and I've had none. (I have been feeling a little anxious, but I think that is more due to a situation going on at work than to anything TTC-related.) That will probably change soon, as I will be starting progesterone gel tonight (yuck) and usually have some side effects from that. I was very bloated and uncomfortable the day of and two days following last cycle's IUI, so I am especially glad to be feeling normal this time around.
I am going out of town on Thursday evening. I'm traveling to my (very small) hometown in New Mexico to see my sister and nephew, who will be there for my sister's 20th high school reunion. I am very much looking forward to seeing them both! (MM has to work this weekend and is staying home with the doggies.)
There have been a few BFPs among my blogging pals these past couple of weeks, and I'm happy for them. Still not happy for fertile acquaintances having kids, though: I saw another law school classmate's post on Fac.eb.ook last night that he and his wife are expecting their second child. I did not post congratulations, and I was not happy for them. LOL I'm such a bad person. . . . .
You aren't a bad person. I rarely post pregnancy congratulations anymore, and I hide almost every pregnant person from my news feed on Facebook. I just can't do it. So don't beat yourself up. There are a lot of us out there who feel the same way. Good luck with this 2WW. I hope you don't go too crazy and I hope that you'll be hiding faces of excitement from your dad and stepmom on Father's Day. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm right here with ya, in the 2ww. I've scheduled an appt with my new therapist on the 21st, so that I'll have some support in case of a BFN!
ReplyDeleteGood luck during the 2WW!! You will get through it!!
ReplyDeleteYou are not a bad person at all. I'm thrilled for my infertile friends who get pregnant, but even being pregnant myself, I still cringe when I hear about regular fertiles getting pregnant.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't a bad person. We all have those thoughts. I think I have them daily. :) Good luck during the wait, are you planning to cheat and POAS? Try and plan some distractions for yourself during this time.
ReplyDeleteR: I'm not an early tester. I don't believe HPTs are accurate for most people--no matter what the package says--until the first day of your missed period. . . . which for me is the same day of my RE-ordered test.
ReplyDeleteI *am* going to be pretty busy, so the time should pass fairly well.
Good luck! I'm three days ahead of you on the IUI front. I hope we both get +++
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