Thank you all for your kind words. I am really not feeling better yet, partly based on IF, partly based on work-related worries, and am still having my little pity party. I do know, though, that this, too, shall pass. I have been in funks before, and things always get better eventually. (You might spare some pity for MM, though, who is getting to live with negative, grumpy S for a while. Not a fun experience, I can assure you.)
I am getting away again this weekend (without MM) and will be seeing loads of old friends and acquaintances who knew me when I was just S. The young, optimistic, just-starting-out S, not S the lawyer worried about her job, S, MM's wife, or S the sad, childless 39-year-old. I think it will be good for me, and I am looking forward to it. I will get to chill with my friends, catch up with all the latest news, and have some delicious authentic New Mexican green chile besides.
Though I am wallowing in self-pity currently, I am not without compassion for my online friends who are dealing with even worse things than I. Two bloggers who I read regularly have experienced heartbreaking losses this week. I hope anyone reading this will take some time to click over and offer support to R and to Jo, both of whom have recently gotten the news that their much-desired and hard-won pregnancies are ending in miscarriage.