No news on the pregnancy/miscarriage front. I will go for my blood draw tomorrow as planned, but otherwise I am still just waiting for my period to start.
I don't think I am sad about our loss because I really didn't have time to get attached to the pregnancy. From the first + HPT, it seemed to me that things weren't right, given that I'd been having cramps and spotting for two days and had had a "period" a week before (not to mention taking Clomid & Follistim). As soon as I got my first beta hCG result back and it was so low, I had a strong feeling that things were not going to end well.
At the same time, though, I am just not myself. I brought work home yesterday, intending to work from home this morning, and I have accomplished nothing. I just don't have the motivation or concentration necessary to get work done.
I lack enthusiasm for my usual activities besides work, too. Just making breakfast and packing my gym bag for this evening seemed to take a lot more effort than usual.
Maybe I am sad on some level, even though intellectually I don't believe that I am. I don't think any good purpose is served by my being mopey, so I hope I am back to my usual self soon.