(Warning: another pregnancy-focused post here. As ever, I won't be offended if you choose not to read it.)
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After writing pretty regularly while we were cycling, my posting here has dropped off the past few weeks. In addition to having difficulty finding the time and energy to write, there are also times when I don't want to share my feelings here right now. Most of the time my feelings are whining complaints about my exhaustion and nausea (and related symptoms), and who wants to read about that?
In no way do I want to seem ungrateful, and I know that there are women reading this blog who would gladly endure what I'm living through if it meant a baby at the end. (And as a friend of mine pointed out, my symptoms are, in a way "self-inflicted.") That doesn't mean it's enjoyable or easy as I'm going through it day by day, hour by hour. Yes, I know it will be worth it at the end, but it's a little hard to see the forest for the trees when you feel like crap nearly all the time.
So forgive my less frequent posting and know that I continue to read all my regular blogs, even when I'm not always commenting. (It's difficult to comment from my smart phone, and that's about the only way I read blogs these days.) There are obviously also positive things happening for us, and I hope to get back to a better place physically and mentally where I feel up to writing about them some time soon.
For today, I did want to post an update on my second appointment with the OB this morning. We saw the actual doctor (as opposed to her very nice and competent nurse practitioner), so that was nice. She took a quick look at the Wonder Twins via ultrasound and told us she could see both heartbeats and that they are developing appropriately. (We were in a different room, with a different, less sensitive ultrasound machine set at a different angle this visit, and I wasn't really able to see much. MM was able to see them, though.)
I had lost a little over 6 pounds since my first visit two weeks ago. The OB isn't concerned about my weight loss--it's normal for many women in the first trimester, and it's not like I was underweight to begin with--but she did write me a prescription for Zo.fran to help with my nausea. I was originally reluctant to take ANY medications while pregnant, but she assured me that it's safe, and my nausea has gotten really, really bad, to the point where I am barely able to eat and am only able to drink sips of liquid at times during the day (and nowhere near the 2-3 liters they recommend for me).
She did tell me (in response to my question on the topic) that my pregnancy is considered "high risk" by virtue of the fact that I'm over 40, did IVF and am having twins. However, she is experienced with caring for patients with all three circumstances and doesn't feel I need to be seeing a perinatologist until/unless problems arise down the road.
So that's where we are. Looks like things are going fine so far.
So happy you had a great appointment. Nausea sucks plain and simple, don't apologize for that.
ReplyDeleteJust my opinion, but based on what I know about multiples and pregnancy, I'd still see a peri. You can keep both doctors and have the OB be the one who delivers. MFM docs do exactly this (high-risk) for a living all day every day, so if your insurance covers it, you'd be safer to go with a peri, too.
ReplyDeleteAgain, just my opinion. Your OB should not have a problem with this.
I feel like Zofran saved my life the first 17 weeks.
ReplyDeleteTake my word for it and also take a stool softener. Those things can and will back you up and it's not fun. :) Gross but true.
Glad you had a good appt. I know how you feel. I'm nauseated and extremely tired, but I try not to complain. I always promised myself and my husband when I finally got pregnant I wasn't going to complain about symptoms. But it's so hard! I tell him I'm not complaining just telling him how I feel :)
ReplyDeleteDon't hesitate to take that Zofran. Seriously, it was a lifesaver for me!
ReplyDelete@Sarah Q: oh yes, I have heard of that particular, um, side effect of Zofran. I will definitely take a stool softener, and I hope once I'm feeling better, I'll be able to drink more water and eat more fruits/veggies to help that situation.
ReplyDelete@Michelle: I made no such promise about not complaining. I complain to my husband all the time! LOL
I second what "R" said above ... it sucks ... don't apologize. Probably one of the worst things about being pregnant after IF, is that everyone expects you to ONLY feel grateful ... apparently we are not allowed to have any other emotion. It will be the same after they are born and you are so wiped out you can't think straight ... everyone will still think you should only feel gratitude ... and you will most of the time ... but there will be moments when you will wonder what the heck you've gotten yourself in to ... :))
ReplyDeleteI hope you start to feel better soon ...
Oh and one more thing, I also agree with "My Vegas" above ... My OB gave me a choice and I saw both my regular OB and the specialist.
I am so happy you are getting the Zo-friend filled! It will be your friend. 6 lbs lost? You poor thing, nausea must be terrible! I'm so glad the Wonder Twins are right on track. Did they give you any pictures? That's nice that MM was able to go with you for the U/S. Is the next one in 2 weeks?
ReplyDeleteI am sorry you are having such a difficult time with your m/s. I hope you start to feel better very soon! So happy to hear the wonder twins are right on schedule!
ReplyDeleteThis is YOUR party and you can cry if you want to!
ReplyDeleteYou shouldn't have to apologize for admitting that you feel bad. It is real and real miserable. I am sorry for those suffering IF (been there) but that emotional pain has nothing to do with the physical torment of pregnancy. These things are unrelated and I don't think pregnant IFers should constantly apologize for admitted that being pregnant is no bed of roses. It's not treason. Having a new baby is amazingly wonderful and incredibly hard; being pregnant is stressful and hard; having IF is emotionally exhausting and painful. I hope you start feeling better soon, but if not, don't apologize for admitting it!
ReplyDeleteSo glad to hear everything is going well with the twins!! Be careful with the zofran! It made things worse for me......severe constipation and stomach cramps! I decided to go off of it and try to deal with the MS........it really sucks! Zofran is great just take a stool softener and eat lots of green leafy veggies an fiber!
ReplyDeleteSo glad all is well with your twins and that they are developing as they should.
ReplyDeleteI also slowed down on my blogging in the first trimester (I am sorry to have to tell you the symptoms of which with twins lasted up to about 18 weeks) for all the same reasons. But I will say that with the way you are feeling I think it is valid to do a little complaining.
Hope the pills work and you start feeling heaps better very soon.
Hopefully this medicine will help you feel better. Don't apologize for anything! This is your blog and your feelings/symptoms. I read it to see what is new with you. This is all part of the growing process for the those wonder twins.
ReplyDeleteSorry you are having a rough go of it. Take the meds, they will help. I am glda that your appointment well and the twins are doing well.
ReplyDeleteUgh...hang in there! Nausea is soo soooo rough. Don't apologize!
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