I often feel that the majority of the posts I write here focus on the negative. I don't think I am alone in this practice; I think that many of us use our blogs as a place to vent or to record difficult thoughts or feelings.
That said, there is so much more that is good about my sons than bad. Yes, there are challenges to having twin two-year-olds. No doubt about that. But at the same time, two is a very fun age. The boys are a constant source of entertainment, and it is really great to see them learning and growing every day.
MM and I remind each other often that the same behaviors that we find difficult to manage signify appropriate development in our sons. We would much rather they be going through this phase than not.
Also, while I will admit that I am more than a little biased as their mother, I think that both AJ and MJ have very likable little personalities. They are two very lovable little boys. MJ makes me laugh every day, and AJ is a little sweetheart.
My life is much more complicated now than it was three years ago. I sleep less, I have less money to spend, and my time is not my own.
But in addition to the fact that I love them both dearly, I feel that my life is richer and more nuanced for having these two little men in it. And for that reason, I wouldn't wish to go back to the days before they were here. . . even though it would mean more sleep, more money and more time for myself.