Thank you to those who read my last post and offered support. I know I will be OK, eventually. I am strong and resilient, and have overcome other obstacles in my life. Moreover, I am not afraid to make changes and take action when a situation warrants it. A friend and I were talking recently about how some people continually play the role of victim in their lives while others are determined to take ownership of their destinies, own their choices, and make changes. I am definitely in the latter category.
In addition, I am fortunate to have the support of a loving husband, friends, and family, some (though not unlimited) financial resources, an education, decent health, and two adorable sons who need their mother to be healthy and present in their lives. These things should help me to do things that might be difficult or impossible for others in my situation.
I am not sure exactly what it will take to "fix" what is wrong, but I am open to finding out. . . and I think that is an important first step.
On an unrelated side note. . . it would be nice to have a year where we don't pay enough for out-of-pocket medical expenses to deduct them on our federal income taxes. Maybe in 2013? Geesh.