(This is another pregnancy-focused post. If you aren't in a place where you want to read that, I understand. Hope you'll come back soon.)
I'm sure by now that many of you have seen photos of Beyonce displaying her "baby bump" at last week's VMAs on MTV. I honestly don't have an opinion about her pregnancy or the way she chose to announce it or the media's reactions. But the photos that have circulated of her "bump" have caused some consternation in our household.
I know I've mentioned here before that MM is a worrier. At least a few times a week, he expresses a new concern that something may be wrong with the Wonder Twins. There are always different reasons for his fears, and I do the best I can to provide information that will allay them when I can. (He has even been losing sleep some nights because he's worried "something is wrong.")
Well, seeing the photos of Beyonce's "bump" and hearing that she is also due in February prompted him to wonder why *I* don't look pregnant. I mean, I have *two* babies in there. . . . I should definitely be showing by now, right? I have tried explaining to him that everyone's bump shows at different times and that the fact that Beyonce is normally quite thin while I am, um, plus-size (size 16-ish), also makes a difference, but so far he has not been reassured. He thinks I have no bump because the babies have (inexplicably) stopped growing since the NT scan.
For the record, I do have a "bump." It just wouldn't be noticeable to anyone who doesn't regularly see me unclothed. (Oh, and in case anyone is thinking of asking. . . . no, I won't be posting photos of my bump here. At least not until it is a definitive baby bump instead of just looking like a fat belly. ;-) )
Unlike Beyonce, I have what I (lovingly) refer to as an "insulating layer of fat" over my bump. So it simply looks like I am fat, not pregnant. When I lie on my back, it is clear that the rounded bump is, in fact, my uterus and not just fat. It's also obvious to the touch. But no one would ever look at me and think "Aha! She's pregnant!" let alone "Aha! She must be having twins!"
I've seen photos posted by other bloggers pregnant with twins who are not as far along as I am (15w2d) and are showing. But again, all these bloggers started out their pregnancies much thinner than I.
I'm sure because I'm having twins, I will soon be showing and will get plenty big enough to assure even MM that I'm pregnant and have growing babies in there. And I really don't mind that I don't look pregnant yet; I certainly *feel* pregnant, I'm not worried about the babies (much--have no reason to be), and it's been nice still being able to wear most of my same clothes. I do kind-of feel bad, though, that this has given MM something else to worry about.